Several frustrating interviews have casted long shadows over my life. Thus, I am always afraid of the interview. Sometimes, I have to deceive myself that identifying talents needs at least seven years and they say no to me just based on the performance of about 10 minutes? Of course, I also reflect on my actions. Firstly, I cannot speak in standard mandarin, which leads to my timidity. It is a long history to investigate the reasons of my pronunciation and it makes no sense. Second, I am not good at speaking and I am always the silent one especially in crowds. In order to overcome it, I try to speak, speak and speak. But it proved of little avail. Besides, I am of a nervous disposition. Perhaps it is some better after years of work. However, I wonder I should attend a training course to get some directions...