羞愧难当，有意自杀谢罪

上帝为俺创造了学习的偶像：格里戈里·佩雷尔曼（Перельман，Perelman），

一位拒绝了1996年欧洲数学奖，2006年菲尔兹奖，2010年千禧年奖的真正数学家。

（1）EMS Prize (1996), declined:

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/European_Mathematical_Society#Prizes

He also turned down the prestigious prize of the European Mathematical Society.[7]

（2）Fields Medal (2006), declined:

In May 2006, a committee of nine mathematicians voted to award Perelman a Fields Medal for his work on the Poincaré conjecture.[19] However, Perelman declined to accept the prize.

（3）Millennium Prize (2010), declined:

On 18 March 2010, Perelman was awarded a Millennium Prize for solving the problem.[31] On June 8, 2010, he did not attend a ceremony in his honor at the Institut Océanographique, Paris to accept his $1 million prize.[32]

还有一位偶像：

亚历山大·格罗滕迪克（Alexander Grothendieck）。

这二位都是犹太人？

俺始终达不到他们的境界。

感谢上帝！

总算批准俺自杀了！

俺最对不起的是上帝：花了这么大力气训练真傻， 以失败而告终。

真正的学者是不求出名的。

老想通过读书、学问求出名，那是中国传统文人思想，与国际科学之道所追求的精神并不相符。

知天命时刻到来时，这个中原因应该是可以悟出的。

相关链接：

[1] Grigori Yakovlevich Perelman

http://www-history.mcs.st-andrews.ac.uk/Biographies/Perelman.html

Born: 13 June 1966 in Leningrad, now St Petersburg, Russia

[2] Grigori Perelman - From Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Grigori_Perelman

[3] Alexander Grothendieck

http://www-history.mcs.st-and.ac.uk/Biographies/Grothendieck.html

Born: 28 March 1928 in Berlin, Germany

Died: 13 November 2014 in Saint-Girons, France

[4] Alexander Grothendieck - From Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

https://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Alexander_Grothendieck

Alexander Grothendieck (German: [ˈɡroːtn̩diːk]; French: [ɡʁɔtɛndik]; 28 March 1928 – 13 November 2014).

[5] 2010-03-21，Grigori Perelman: Millennium Prize of Clay Mathematics Institute 与天才的心灵

http://blog.sciencenet.cn/blog-107667-304994.html

[6] 2015-05-30，[求助] 哈佛大学 Mullainathan 教授的累傻观点，是怎么回事？

http://blog.sciencenet.cn/blog-107667-894203.html

[7] 2015-05-26，[转载] 哈佛教授告诫你：长期太累太穷，人会变傻！

http://blog.sciencenet.cn/blog-107667-893198.html

穷人不是不努力，而是因为长期贫穷，失去了摆脱贫穷的智力和判断力，这种状况不变，再努力也是白费