I have had a problem with sleep since I took Tamoxifen. Taking Tamoxifen gave me some symptoms of menopause. sleepless is one of these symptoms.

It was really hopeless when you stared at the darkness with an unclear mind. no matter how hard you tried, you just could not sleep. Because I knew how horrible it is , I also knew how important sleep is for me to refresh myself, so, I tried much harder. unfortunately, it did not work. one hopeless leads to another hopeless, which make your life from bad to worse and from worse to worsest. really a bad circle.

When I was home, my husband was with me, I could complain him about my situation. He would try his best to relax me. but here I am alone, when I can not sleep, only anxiety accompanies me, I am worried and tried my best to avoid this situation.

so, tea and coffee are what I tried my best to avoid.

Today, my supervisor invited me having a cup of tea. I followed because I wanted to know how I should get alone with my new supervisor. Maybe there would be some kinds of flower tea which should not influence sleep. he asked what I wanted to drink. there were no different tea to be selected. I knew normal tea was not good for sleep, so I didn't want to drink it. because there are some pieces of bread, but it was not time for food. so it was better to have a small piece of bread. so I pointed to the list to order the cheapest one......

but it turned out a cup of coffee! worse than tea! my supervisor told me all things in the list were coffee, different kinds of coffee from different countries.

I told my supervisor I could not drink coffee because of my sleep problem, I asked him if he could drink this cup of coffer. he then led me to the social space of PhD students and try to prepare another cup of tea for me.

I told him that I just wanted a cup of water if I had to drink something.

Then he threw the cup of coffee to the dustbin and poured a cup of water for me.

Poor me!  can not enjoy coffee, which is 1.8 pound in England! 18RMB, in China I can eat in school canteen for the whole day with these money.